Saturday, December 27, 2008

Christmas wasn't too bad. It was a little skimpy this year, but I was happy with what I got. The important thing was everyone was healthy and happy. My mom got me a gift card and a new bed in a bag set. Its gorgeous and comfy and Joe never slept on it, lol...My grandma knitted me a very pretty, soft afghan that oddly enough matches my bed in a bad. Don't know if that was intentional or not! My brother got me Tales of Beedle the Bard from the Harry Potter series. Any of you who know me enough know I'm obsessed with Harry Potter, lol! My best friend/roomie got me Lady GaGa's CD, the Fame. I love her, her songs have a good beat and she sings the craziest things!

One thing that did happend that upset me was "Bio Dad" called. He called before I got to my grandmas house and I wouldn't call back, so he called me back. I didn't want to talk to him, but my grandma made me. This year talking to him made me cry. Don't know why. Some years I'm okay with, some years I get mad, and sometimes I cry. I hate crying over that pathetic excuse of a father/human being but sometimes I do. I told my mom I just wished he wouldn't call at all. He doesn't acknowledge us at all the rest of the year, so why bother just because it's christmas. Does it make him feel more like a father to call or something?? To me, all it does is show how pathetic he is. Lets ignore my childrend 364 days a year and only call them on christmas....I'm such a wonderful father!!! What pisses me off more is he is raising his Step grandchildren from his troll of a wife. How can he raise someone elses children and ignore the three he left behind here?? It baffles me, hurts me and makes me sooo angry!!! I've asked him why and of course he had no answer...

So, I gave him five minutes of my time on Christmas to cry and then I went back inside and had a good time with my family. He doesn't know what he's missing.

2 comments:

beckyboop said...

He doesn't know what he is missing. My Dad was absent for a good part of my life. He raised my 5 step brothers. My stepmother hated us. Her allowed her to keep us apart. My older sister begged me to see him on father's day one year. Randy pulled him aside and had a serious talk to him about how it breaks my heart. He actually told my dad he would have to kick his ass if he kept it up. My dad started calling me every week after that. Dad would always mention what a good man I had. Dad and I are pretty close now.

I'm glad you had a good Christmas despite your absent fathers yearly attempt to bond.

Hugs!

Lavinia said...

Hi Pearl. Fathers are exasperating, all around, if you ask me! I live with my elderly father....just don't even get me started on that.!

ANyway, I wanted to let you know that I've been barely blogging, life is just too busy, but I wanted to say thanks for wishing me a merry christmas comment, I appreciate it, and I thought I'd pop over here and say Happy New year, and I hope it really is a happy new year for you, a time of new beginnings and new adventures. May 2009 bring you joy, peace, contentment, love, laughter, good health, and prosperity. All the best for the new year!